It is so sad when human beings are just thrown away, thats what I am, a throw away.
I was thrown away at birth and I dont want to hear " my mom was looking for a better life for me."
I felt like I was thrown away.
After being adopted by a mother from the deepest depths of hell, it was pounded into my head everyday, I was ugly.
My dad and I had a relationship of sorts but mother dear was a jealous woman and quickly put an end to that, I wasnt allowed to sit on his lap, I wasnt allowed to play with him or laugh and giggle, she made sure she was in control.
She would constantly tell him horrible things I had done, most of them the truth was so twisted it could only come from her mind, I would hang my head and say nothing.
If I did I was hit in the mouth.
She pretty much turned my family against me as well, I was the black sheep, the unwanted, the throw away.
I havent spoken to her in many years, she still is crazy.
Have you ever been beaten on your female parts? Thats what my mom did, both her and my father. Of course she was behind him telling him what to do.
I remember it like a white hot slash in my brain, it still radiates color when I think about it.
I was caught touching myself and well, it was a big no-no.
At first I remember her putting muscle rub on me, I still can smell it.
Then I was bent over the bed backwards and with panties around my ankles I was beaten with a paint ruler, the kind they stir paint with, this has happened on more than one occasion. I also remeber her given me a bath and telling me my bruised area looked like it was wearing lipstick.
The funny thing is I told no-one, she threatened me with dire punishment if I did.
Throw away girl.......not worth anything.